Looking back on my sophomore year
I have not done my homework this week because I was too busy reflecting on my sophomore year. As I near the end of the fall semester, I realize I’m not the same Hawk I was at the beginning of the semester.
As an incoming freshman I was scared of swimming in the ocean for the first time, but now I’m scared of not finding the food to stay alive. Food or resources to succeed is crucial in surviving the university lifestyle. College can be intimidating for many, myself included. Even as I go through college my second year, I still find it haunting. Mainly, because the fear of failing a class will be with me until I graduate.
Sophomore year was a heck of a ride. I went through a lot of growth as person as well as on an academic standpoint. This may sound dumb, but I feel more like an adult. It’s this sense of power that I have knowing that my life is in my hands and I think that’s what being an adult feels like. It’s all on me and my choices affect my future. I don’t have my mom waking me up every morning to catch the bus or my dad giving me lunch money everyday.
During my freshman year I was all over the place and volunteering at events out of the blue. This year I wasn’t as nearly as involved because I needed a break to think about my future. My classes this semester where more lenient on workload. They were mainly composed of exams and I for one prefer that. This semester was actually more relaxing.
Change can be very small but as time goes by, it accumulates. Last year, I was proud of writing my first six-page paper, but now I whip them out like nothing. College has definitely shaped me into a better person.
As I near the end of sophomore year, I realize that I’m not ready to decide what is want to do in the future yet. I am starting to get asked what I want to do for a career. I honestly have no answer. I don’t even know if I want to keep the same major. As a sophomore, things started to set into place. I am unable to change my major unless, of course, I want to lose about a semester’s worth of work. However, guidance to achieving what I want in my current major is helping me maintain a positive outlook.
As the fall semester comes to an end, I wonder how I might look by the time I graduate. Future me and present me might not even recognize each other. It would be a heck of great sight to see them meet. Maybe I’ll make a video time capsule! Reflecting on how I’ve changed throughout the semester is a great way to not do homework.
